When I didn’t need, but yet I chose

When it looked impossible, and yet I bore

The effort to comply, for happiness and for peace

The unconditional faith, I displayed in my reach.

The wait has been long, and time has gone by

The promises faded and love gone dry

The words are guarded, calculated or none

The response is no more an instant eager one.

The long silences, are shoved in the closet

The elephant in the room blows his trumpet

Yet it’s like nothing has happened or will

Days to months there’s silence on the sill.

Unresolved feelings pile on without a connect

Forget some, the rest can go under the carpet.

Only giving and smiling can never work always

The balance is tilted or taken for granted.

There is no growing old in companionship

There is only alignment to a single ownership.

The fabric is wearing off with unacceptance now

I no longer want to pretend to be your muse now.

The friendship is long gone so is the thought

It’s a mere balance sheet of the given and the lost.

We are clearly two shores running parallel, of a river

We have our different views and needs to cater.

Neither of us wants to leave anything

We are both tired of endless waiting

There’s no midway to reconcile or to meet

Only feeble attempts in a last hope, to plan a treat.

We both have had our trials and separate journeys

Perhaps from the beginning, we were chalk and cheese

It was probably just the idea of a crazy concept

Of being together that swept us off our feet.

Did we know we were in this pact together?

Or were the fences of two sides up and drawn already

Before we even began to partner and secure a future

Or did I alone keep climbing walls, reaching out to your family?

Or you wanted it different and I cannot remember?

Why you swore you would cherish this, no matter what, forever?

Or leave this neglected with unspoken regret

Only to wither, step aside and forget?

Pune, May 22,2023